I'm sorry I've been away for so long, if anyone still likes my poems and photos that is. I've pretty much moved over to FurAffinity as - [link] - where I am currently working on the chronicles of FinalGamer.

Yes that raptor, the one with the crazy game-related stuff in all the commissions.
That one. He's now got stories! TEH WRITINGZ! Okay seriously though I've been really storming on them lately so I guess if any of you were curious enough about him you can read them.

I'm not really dead here, I just haven't had any ideas of poetry for a long time, I've been more into stories than poems of late. So uhhh...stay cool DA!

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Rules:
1. post these rules
2. each person tagged must post 8 random (hopefully interesting) facts about themselves
3. tags should write a journal of these facts
4. at the end of the post 8 more bloggers are tagged and named.
5. go to their page and leave a comment telling them that they're tagged.

1. I am extremely picky with my food to the point that I can count how many kinds of food I eat by one hand.

2. I suffered from nightmares constantly until I was 10 years old.

3. I am incredibly giggly when drunk but oddly more balanced.

4. I am bisexual with 60% liking in guys and 40% in girls.

5. I have a boyfriend.

6. I weigh 156 lbs.

7. I hate High School Musical so much I will punch something when it comes on, or leave the room.

8. I have memorised videogame composers by NAME, 85% of whom are Japanese.

And for tagging...oh how about

From the ever-awesome

1. Choose a few of your own characters. Five at the most.
2. Make them answer the following questions.
3. Then tag three people.
4. Feel free to go ahead and add some questions yourself!!

So. . . who's doing the quiz? And introduce yourself please for the rest.
FinalGamer: OOH, I love quizzes! FinalGamer, traveller of the universe.
Leon: Hmmm a little questionnaire? Why not, I always enjoy some information sharing. I am Leon Uranov, a pleasure to meet you.
Tropar: Ask away. My name is Tropar.
Jordan: Sure sure, shoot, but not literally. Name's Jordan MacIntyre.
Jaled: I have some time, go right ahead. Dr Jaled Emkra, a pleasure to meet you.

1. What's your favorite food?
FinalGamer: Mushrooms! Especially some tasty Green 1-up ones!
Leon: Pumpkin pie, especially baked by dear Nana.
Tropar: Some good dripping raw flesh.
FG: *looks a little oddly at Tropar*
Leon: *moves away slightly*
Tropar: What? I know no other taste, surely YOU of all creatures know that, FG.
FG: Ahhh...next question!
Jordan: Woah woah woah, not answered it yet.....ahhh....good old broccoli sandwiches.
Jaled: And I enjoy some Nork myself. Lovely corn meat hybrid stuff.

2. Are you a virgin?
FinalGamer: Ohhhh hell no!
Leon: Just barely not.
Tropar: No, certainly I could never refuse such a pleasure.
Jordan: Ahhh...can I not answer that?
Jaled: I am not at liberty to say either.
Jordan: *looks at Jaled and winks*
Jaled: *looks back and raises eyebrow curiously*

3. What kind of movies do you watch?
FinalGamer: Ahhh horror usually, some sci-fi and comedy.
Leon: The moving pictures? I am a large fan of Buster Keaton myself.
Tropar: Moo-vee?
FG: Okay, seriously you have GOT to get out more Tropar.
Leon: Even I know what they are, surely.
Tropar: Let me know when they make technology underground in my area, and then I can contribute.
Jordan: I kinda like anything fast, yanno, and explosions, Mission Impossible or sumthin'.
Jaled: I am a mixed person, I don't really have time to watch movies.

4. Are you married?
FinalGamer: Never have, never will probably.
Leon: I was about to be wedded to someone once, but that did not end well, the harlot she was.
Tropar: To my dear Siras!
Jordan: Nope, free as the wind my friends!
FG: Amen to that! *high fives with Jordan*
Jaled: *looks disapprovingly at FG and Jordan and replies* I was once...but not anymore.
Leon: *looks at Jaled with knowing pity*

5. Have you ever gotten drunk before?
FinalGamer: Oh man, yeah, there was one time I had Koopa Tea mixed with Ol' Toad Brandy, MAJOR blackout but apparently I totally had a bender with some guys in the town, it was awesome, we totally trashed a few lights and I made out with a tree!
Leon: I...admittedly am partial to the odd whisky but only to clear my head.
Tropar: No, but I have taken hallucinogens, actually it's a necessary thing in my life.
Leon: Ahh the old opium is it?
Tropar: Oh ho ho, no, far stronger than opium good sir.
Jordan: Hahaha, like asking what the bear does in the woods, and I've seen what they do, filthy bastards the whole lot of them! I don't remember never being drunk! Except now.
Jaled: Occasionally with friends, when it's a night out with the guys.

6. Do you have a celebrity crush?
FinalGamer: Well...there are a few...not celebrities but rather infamous leaders....*murmurs a few names* Scales...mmmmm...
Leon: I am a large fan of Mae West. I love a strong woman!
Tropar: Hehehe, celebrity? Ohhh far too many in my life to count.
Jordan: Ohh man, ahhh....Sigourney Weaver....Kiefer Sutherland...Ahhhh......mmmm.....that French chick in Amelie.....yeah that'll be enough.
Jaled: No.

7. Your embarrassing moment?
FinalGamer: Ahhh...let's just say it involves some plant hormones and a few pirates and a hidden video.
Jordan: Ohh dude, I know how that feels! I got tied in the woods one night, we were gonna stag one of the guys with a real stag....got my ass like a truck's tailpipe now.
Leon: One time I stole all the napkins from a table and dressed up as a ghost. Haha...ohh Miss Strake was so furious.
Tropar: One of my friends walked in on me and Siras during our....more intimate sessions shall we say?
FG: Ooooh, not gonna say?
Tropar: No!
Jaled: Waking up next to a fake fetus shell, one of my coworkers put it there as a joke, thought I was gonna get impregnated.

8. Your best friends?
FinalGamer: Ahhh I got a few. Koopin, Masami, Boovool, Henry, Sarah, they're all over the place.
Leon: Yes, Matthieu is my closest friend. There is also Mr Hume, a beggar I talk to every day.
Tropar: Siras of course, Ryong and Coyote too are good friends to me, and Alan.
Jordan: Ahhh Jerry...yeah there's Jerry, an....and uhhh....*drifts off mumbling*
Jaled: John Cobain, my closest worker and friend.

9. Random sayings?
FinalGamer: "A metroid in the tube is worth two on the brain!"
Leon: "Tempus Fugit!"
Tropar: "Two claws are better than one, but two hands are always an aid."
Jordan: "You'll never see a sight more impressive than a Scotsman on the make....except for Canadians!"
Jaled: "Science says I might be right, but Religion says I am always right."

10. If you saw a shooting star right now, what would you wish for?
FinalGamer: I wish to live in peace without having to run from anything again.
Leon: I wish to live in luxury with my friends.
Tropar: I wish for evil to be banished forever.
Jordan: I wish to never die of drink.
Jaled: I wish to never see what I've seen again.

11. What is your favorite word, in English if you please?
FinalGamer: Bastard!
Leon: *flinches from FG* Sir, please be civil! Anyways for me, it would be Autumn.
Tropar: My favourite word is...Pleasant.
Jordan: Mine is absolutely Sea!
Jaled: Galaxy.

12. What song was sung to you when you were a child as you went to sleep?
FinalGamer: I....don't remember....*looks away*
Leon: Korobeiniki. I love that song so much.
Tropar: My mother never sang songs, she would speak to me.
Jordan: Ahhh...think it was When The Saints Go Marching In.
Jaled: I know the tune but not the name.

13. What was the best day or moment of your life?
FinalGamer: The day the Army died.
Leon: When my father gave me a watch. The only thing he ever gave me apart from name and blood.
Tropar: When me and my brother Avox killed our first, together. It was wonderful.
Jordan: Remember that stag night I told ya about? Yeah....hahaha!
Jaled: When I finally deciphered the Cold Crypto-Isolation Denominator that had been annoying me for MONTHS!

14. How would you describe your voice?
FinalGamer: It's a sort of...English North London accent. My parents weren't around too long for me to take their speech.
Leon: It's mostly dissipated but I have a Russian accent, that I've covered over mostly with living in London on the West End.
FG: Hey, you're a Londoner too???
Leon: Why yes, live down on Denmark Street. And you?
FG: Mulberry Hill, the orphanage nearby too!
Tropar: It's very throaty and hazy, but I cannot say I have an accent, maybe just English from the way I taught myself with language.
Jordan: Canadian accent here, Toronto I was born.
Jaled: Ahhh it is a Nilian accent, I was born on the planet of Nilias in the Salec System.

15. Who is your favorite boyfriend/girlfriend(s)?
FinalGamer: Ohhhh...Masami was a wonderful guy.
Leon: .....oooh...now there was a charming girl up the road I was with for a while, Mary was her name.
Tropar: Only my dear Siras, my sweet salamander of the rainbow.
Jordan: Ahhh....had a girl once....had a guy once....both were great...then they fuck OFF with each other, bastards!
Jaled: My wife...once.


16. Who is your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend(s)?
FinalGamer: Masami really and Koopin.
Leon: Just Mary I guess.
Tropar: None.
Jordan: Did you even HEAR what I just said???
Jaled: See my previous statement.

17. Do you have any gifts from your boyfriend/girlfriends from your first date? Who gave them to you and what are they?
FinalGamer: Nope.
Leon: Can't say so.
Tropar: None that come to mind other than the sight of her every morning.
Jordan: Fuck no, except the pain of betrayal I have mended with good ol' Mr Daniels! BITCH and FUCKER!
Jaled: Only her picture.

And lastly who to tag?
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Top 5 Most Disturbing Moments in Kid's Movies

I am a person who firmly believes that children should not live in a glass bubble of happiness and sunshine, let me say this first. I applaud and appreciate children's movies that try and instill some fear into you and force you to see an issue face-up. Of course there are moments we remember, hopefully, as children when we were forced through cinema to deal with a subject. Sometimes it helped us, such as the Lion King helping kids deal with bereavement much more easily. Other times, it can be quite scarring. But that's not the fault of the movie makers, it is the child him or herself that must handle it, almost a growing experience. Without understanding such things you may well grow up to be quite jaded. That's my opinion anyway.
So here is my list of top 5 most disturbing moments of children's movies, that personally affected me, in no particular order.

1 - The Death of Littlefoot's Mother (The Land Before Time)
Now of course we all know the Bambi moment, and in Lion King with Mufasa, but those moments did not strike me as hard as the very first death I saw represented in any way. Land Before Time is perhaps the only film that makes me break into tears from the very beginning, and this moment is one of the major reasons. Littlefoot and his friend Cera are being chased by a Sharptooth/T Rex and about to be snapped up when Littlefoot's mother comes right in to kick his ass hard with her tail. A furious battle happens while the earth below their feet is shifting insanely so due to the unpredictable climate of their era (I think). The Sharptooth is vanquished, but Littlefoot's mother carries worser wounds.
Now Bambi never saw his mother die. In fact none of us ever did, it was an offscreen death but one that was still very shocking.
But with Littlefoot, I feel the death is even worse. His mother is dying slowly, right before his very eyes and ours as well, and what follows after that is a journey of hopelessness, confusion, and sorrow. Bambi had an easy break by being the Prince of the Forest and having a dad to support him. But Littlefoot, his grandparents were on the other side of a chasm in the earthquake, and he has no royalty to get comfy with. So he had to bear the brunt of bereavement on his long neck hard, only supported by a few friends along the way.
It breaks my heart every time when he sees a shadow of himself and thinks it's his mother, before he licks the rock wall it was on and his face turn from surprised joy, to utter crushing depression.
You can't get any more heartbreaking than this. Well, admittedly Simba got exiled and even blamed for his dad's death so I guess you can. But not to me.

2 - Bigwig Ensnared (Watership Down)
Watership Down is one of those films that scarred an entire generation, and glad it did too, in my opinion. It was a film that at first people thought was about a bunch of rabbits finding a sanctuary, and it is. But it's more than that. It is a film about their spirituality, life and death to a rabbit as a descendant of El-Ahrairha (their master, according to their folklore) and awaiting the day when the Black Rabbit of Inle shall come to claim them as part of his warren in rabbit heaven...or wherever rabbits go after death. Several moments in the film are incredibly blunt about death, but the most disturbingly graphic scene is when Bigwig is caught in a snare and is literally choking to death. At first it's a harsh choking, but then you start seeing blood seep from his nose and mouth until he has a red bib of blood on his front. It just hits you with it, hard. But hey that's what happens to rabbits in real life, so it's almost educational on the frailty of life.
God knows what would have happened if the makers of this film did Bambi. Probably have had the mother bleeding from the neck of an enormous shotgun wound.

3 - "Worthless" (The Brave Little Toaster)
While several moments of this underrated film stick in my head, such as the lonely flower or Toaster's nightmare of the clown, one particular part stuck out to me the most. Near the end of the film, Toaster and his friends find themselves in a scrap yard where of course all old appliances and vehicles are made into....scrap. The song that plays, sung by the cars before their doom and is based on a song by a country-western Supergroup involving Johnny Cash, Willie Nelson, Kris Kristofferson and another guy I can't remember, is both catchy and startlingly morbid when you wrap your head around it. A race car is retired and at the end of his race, a family car became too small for its family, and lastly, the car with horns who says she took a Texan to his wedding, and then the car after her took a man to his funeral.
Although the film has been known to be scary to kids involving dissection of a machine and nightmares, the "Worthless" song the junkyard cars sing seemed to be quite surprising to me in that they explicitly stated connections to death in the song. It's a good thing but nevertheless quite something I will hold with me.

4 - The Walrus, the Carpenter, and the Oysters (Alice In Wonderland)
Out of all the scenes in the old Disney movies that really made me go "What the-HOLY SHIT YOU MONSTER", this one was particularly disturbing to hear. In the original novel and this film, there is a tale of the Walrus and the Carpenter who make friends with some oysters, to actually eat them, little BABY oysters. The Carpenter is dumb eventually forgetting the original purpose of this invitation to dinner, but the walrus was crafty and ate them all when the carpenter was busy cooking an actual meal for the oysters to have. It's not well remembered and not a very important part of the film other than being true to the writing, but...god that's pretty disturbing to think of.

5 - Slaying the Dragon (Sleeping Beauty)
This is a very odd thing to me. Apparently when I was a baby this was the only thing of the entire movie to upset me, when the Maleficent dragon was slayed by the heroic Prince Charming. I mean okay she was evil but I dunno what makes me still feel disturbed by this. My love of dragons? The scream she makes? The sword plunged squarely in her heart? I may never know. But I do know I still cringe at this part.

You know what I found really helps fearful anxiety and maybe even depression?
A random philosophical debate with yourself, on a subject quite a distance away from whatever you're getting all "waaah" about.
I just did it, and it's working quite well.